Fresh Start.

I'm going to keep this short. But somehow I thought I could just walk away, and get over it. Today was the day I realized I can't. And maybe I'm the queen of vulnerability and heartbreak  Maybe I'm too open and my heart is on my sleeve. Maybe I could pretend you don't exist (This really doesn't work, I've tried. You're everywhere). But recently I decided you weren't a good idea. I still think that was a wise decision. Then I see you in social situations and wait to talk to me, no matter how much I ignore you. It isn't an accident. When I see that you want to talk to me, it hurts. It draws me back in. I'm not going to get over you, unless you leave me alone. As much as it makes no sense for two sensible individuals to be friends. It hurts too much. I can't just be your friend. And I need to leave this in the past. This is my decision. Now I just need to figure out how to convey this to you, before this becomes too toxic.
As always the tv and song clips explain how I feel better than I can say with words...

Taylor Swift- I almost do

Starting at 3:23