Secret Messages.

I haven't decided whether I'll share these thoughts in person with those around me. Knowing me, I will tell those around me how I feel, because I always feel called to do so. But I always have things I would love to say. So for now, I will write them down. And who knows maybe one will be about you? Or maybe you'll know who I'm writing to?

I'm sorry for being distant these last few weeks. The last time I saw you, you really hurt me. But that's no excuse. I should have been there for you these last few weeks, and I'm sorry. I understand why you said what you said, and I do forgive you. Which is so difficult, but I do truly value our friendship more than I'm hurt. I hope you're doing well, you are such a star. You excel at all you put your mind to, and I'm so proud. You're going places and your future is bright. And I know you know that. So I just hope you remember, that life is more than financial and intellectual success. Don't forget who gave you all of these wonderful opportunities.

You know what I love about you? Life has thrown you so many curve balls, and yet today you are still such a strong fighter. You've been through so much, and I know sometimes it feels like it's all you can take. But trust me, I love you, we all love you, and we are here supporting your every move. I know school has been tough, but you're going to make it through. You are going to have the most secure job out of all of us. And that wise decision will make of these trials worth it. And don't worry you'll find love, and you'll have a wonderful family. You'll be a great wife and mother, I can see that you doubt that sometimes, and you feel you might end up single. But no, the Lord has better plans in store for you. I just hope you can realize he loves you, and you can trust him with everything. I hope you find faith, it'll be the best thing that's ever came your way. The mountains you climb in life will turn into piggy back rides with Him, so just let Him in.

Sometimes I don't even know what I should write to you, so I haven't. And here we are today and you were the first to reach out. Guess who just realized they were an idiot? I really have valued your friendship these last few years, and sometimes I suck at showing that. So I'm going to do better, I promise from now on. Your on my list of those I'm making time for and caring for wholeheartedly. You've changed my last few years, and I can't even begin to thank you enough for that. You've made college a great experience for me. And I have been able to love the UofO instead of hide in my car. Thank you thank you!

I have never given you enough credit, and I'm sorry for that. I have underestimated you. And the Lord knew that and has shown me, I know nothing about the future. This is where I say I was wrong, I'm sorry, and congrats for everything! You've grown and I never knew when that was going to happen. But you did, and I couldn't believe it. It was something that I didn't expect and yet again the Lord is continually teaching me many lessons. You're experiencing all I would have hoped you would. For so long I wanted you to understand, and you understand more than I would have ever guessed. Your accepting change beautifully like a butterfly (and no that wasn't cheesy). So here is to, your dreams to continue to come true. And that when a hard time comes your way, it won't ruin your sunny day. But I'm proud, and so happy for you.

I am sorry for there are so many that discount you. I've seen so many be completely rude to you. And they are completely wrong for doing that. You deserve better. You are truly kind, and there is nothing fake about it. Yes you think differently but so what, we all do, and we all need to be respected. Your heart is so big, and I think some people take advantage of that. So as you continue to find your way this year, I know it's been difficult. But I hope you can see that those who are rude to you, aren't worth your time. You are too loving for that. And slowly let them go. You need to be treated with respect and they need to learn that. We are all beings that need to be loved always, not just when others feel like it.

You know, I don't think that I would have ever guessed we'd ever completely get along. I thought we were too alike and that would always be an issue. And here I am again, wrong. But I love getting to know you, the real you. You are deep and thoughtful. And you always tell it like it is. I am grateful for our friendship, it feels like such a solid understandable bond. You are entering new waters gracefully. It's great to see. You are growing into yourself, and embracing your future. I'd wish you the best, but I know that the best is already coming your way. But don't forget the strength of your faith. And be careful stay true to yourself when a great boy comes along, because he will.

Sometimes I feel like you don't need my thoughts because you have your own thing figured out. But no that's not the case. I pray that you help those around you immensely this year. I feel like you are called to do that. I pray that friendships can be rebuilt. I pray that you immerse yourself in the social games, because secretly you can really enjoy it. I pray that you find your strength in you faith again, I know sometimes it can be hard. But I've seen you really do something truly beautiful with your beliefs, so keep on keeping on. I pray that even though everyone else seems different, you understand them and who they are and what they choose to do with their lives. And though your mind is always open I pray for your mind to be completely open with no restraints.

I only want the best for you all, I love you all. And I know we can change the world. It seems silly but we can make an impact, we can make difference. We can show the love that has been given to us.